Is getting older worth it?

I think becoming older comes with so much clarity that can be scary.

As for me, I have known love, hate and all the others in between. I have doubted myself and I have hated my self. Making progress in my thoughts but having nothing physical to show for it. I’ve lost friends, family and foes alike ( not physically of course) they might not know they’ve been lost but they have.

The only thing on my mind is how to get better how to not feel things. Getting older teaches you more about who you are, the layers of skin you have and yes, you know when the Bible says;

” Jer 17:9    “The heart is deceitful above all things And it is extremely sick; Who can understand it fully and know its secret motives?

We further fit this description because there’s now little or no innocence left in us. I don’t think I like getting older very much but it’s a constant that cannot be evaded. With constant battles we fight daily it’s essential to not loose sight of yourself and where you think you want to be ( at least till you’re sure it’s where God wants you to be).

the worst thing about growing up for me is my ability to see through people, knowing their exact intentions and not being able to do anything than just ignore them because “it’s not worth my peace ”

Ignorance is never something to be happy about but sometimes I envy youngsters.

I know this post is bleak but that’s all from me for now.

Thanks so much for your time.

Xoxo

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